emotional wrecker.
In two more days, I would be in the new school. I'll be done with the holidays much earlier, technically, thanks to the orientation on Wednesday. As I wait anxiously to embark on the new journey of life, I still have many things need to be said, clarify, and share with
you, fellow readers, acquaintances, friends, and family.
I realise that life really is a funny thing. And by that, I mean funny peculiar, not funny haha. If you care to read my previous posts dated March and April 2006, there's revelation of a lot of happenings in my life.
Back then, I was struggling to find a school for myself. To put it bluntly, I was desperate for a school. I got rejected by all polys, one time after another, to the point of my being an emotional wreck. I got a little disheartened. I remember distinctly writing "Like I have a choice." in one entry and got rebutted by the sister with this long tag which to put it shortly means "stopbeinganassholicmasochisticpoorlittleme." But as they say, "Beggars can't be choosers.", I applied for a place in ITE and got accepted just a day before school started. You can pretty much say the life then, was a long neverending soap opera.
Rewinding it a little, while the school matter was still making me feel useless, Yana was already starting her JC, which didn't help my already-low self-esteem much. Besides rotting at home, I was also busy spending time shuttling between hospitals accompanying the aunt for chemo. Around the same time she suddenly did not need the chemotheraphy anymore, I got offered a place in ITE.
That, was more than a coincidence to me. The adults kept telling me that it could be because of my helping around. Considering that I was offered the place a day before school started, I'd like to think that
maybe.
Just maybe, it was more than a coincidence.
And as I said earlier, life really is a funny thing. As I anxiously wait to get into poly, a whole new school, environment and people - a lot lot different from the ITE I once dreaded joining but now love and going to miss, the aunt got admitted back into hospital. I'm feeling a little sad right now. And I bet the kiddos are feeling much worse.
But I hope everything is going to be alright. I'm praying that everything is going to be alright.
....
These past few days, I've been informing few people about my going to poly. But instead of a congrats, their first reaction was "Huh?Then what about ITE? Sayang nyer... " Their reactions are really understandable. People close to me should know. They know that 2006/2007 is my happiest schooling life. Because of the school. The ITE life. The people. The class. The friends. The gang. You would have heard this before many many times, but I'll say it again. ISO rock. :))
I love them so much that when I got the poly news, I was actually feeling guilty like some traitor. I tried to relate to some people how much the decision have been bugging me, but I guess no one really understands. I was not lying when I said I cried walking out of the school that day. But in the end, I have to make a practically decision. And that's what I did.
So as I move on to the supposedly much greener pasture, I wish you guys the best in life. And thank you for being a rock. (and just in case, that's a compliment ehh.) :) Sayang korangs.
CHEERS.
IYL STOP RANTING @ 8:06 PM
