foul mood
i'm depressed.and really piss at me.
too late for anything.
and some things are better leave unsaid.
rather than make you depress all over again.
but really.if you had read through my previous entries,during the pre-result times.those nerves and hints of regrets blah blah.
yeah,i'm feeling it.
but like i said,some things are better leave unsaid.
and please don't ask me about you-know-what.
it's annoying me.and there's high possibilty that i might strangle you to death.
cos you know,i'm depressed.
shoo,go spread the word.
Pfft.....
time now: after almost 3 hours out,a lunch and a bath later...
i just got back my sanity.still depress,but not so.and i'm still racking my brain and going nuts over you-know-what.sheesh.
jsut now was really really erm,depressing.really helps that sis were there to help me with the appealing thing.(thanx dear!) annddd...text-ed some people and all couldn't get to poly.just the same as me.=) don't be mistaken.not that i'm happy they couldn't get through.but yeah.nice to know that i'm not the only one.
but anything.just now,mom called all worried while i was doing the appealing.since i cried when i knew the result.she was really,really worried.and kept calling.and she couldn't concentrate on her work and all.so it really made me feel bad.
something in me tells me that she didn't expect this from me.that i could do better.
i think i've let her down.
and i shall stop writing about this.cos i swear i will cry.again.
to dear normal human beings alive and kicking.... i said don't ask me about this holy poly or else i will try not to strangle you.i'm really half insane,half depressed and full of a whole crap of stress and pressure.so please...don't laugh.or trying to make jokes to make me feel better.cos i am not going to feel better.and please please please.don't tell me about your school and future blah blah.
i really have enough to worry about.
call me jealous.
honestly,i am.
peace?
IYL STOP RANTING @ 9:24 AM
