kismet or not?

I really don't know where to start.

I'm really,really bracing myself for tmr.can't help being nervous.and scared.I'm already imagining some situations that could happen tmr,which according to farah, the Judgement Day.whoo.drama?no,it really is THAT scary.

so there's high possibility that I might cry.(which I promise someone I won't will try not to)
only He knows why I would cry.maybe of despair and shock.maybe not.I'm still praying really hard.And hopefully tmr,when I've reach the hall,I won't have a nervous breakdown or anything.

which is why I'm hoping that the "calm me.calm you." session I'm having with farah before the result tmr will somehow ease off the pressure and all.just hangout and lunch,to get the pressure off.

you know,there's days which everyone wish they could undo.
days that could change your whole life...

well,I've been thinking about it.and how I wish I could have listen to mr hafiz,when he gave me all those hints.lectures.reality check.and a lot of advises.
It affected me,but just for awhile.

of course,not until the m.p.s.

too late for realisation or regrets,isn't it?
what more can I do?I know I've done my very best.

the anticipation of the result is crucifying.
it keeps nagging me.
how will i do?
how will it be?
how will i react?

only He knows how agonising this wait is.
and hopefully,i do okay.

funny how your future is determined by a piece of paper.
(quoted from iyloo)

weird but true.

24 hours and a sleepless long night.