haidar's advance bdae card

this is the card haidar made for me.the one when he locked me out of my own bedroom.
erm,i think that's me on the right.LOL.

aww.i know,so sweet can.-_____-

that sweeto haidareh.

thanks baybeh!!! <3

the advance birthday date.

i'm slouching in my chair as i'm typing this.really,really shagged,but no.this can't wait till tomorrow.

OMG.so much to write about and so little time.gahh.(the eyes are already half close,and the mouth yawning too big)*let your imagination go wild*

it'd be random,again.so i'll just let you make what of it,again again.

okay.first of all.i get to go ite bishan.(!!) yes,a shocker,since i gave up hope on anything to do with school.=) but no,bless the soul who called me and tell me in a very,very long-winded way that "we have vacancy". i screamed like mad (of course,after off the line).

so here it goes,business admin,go school at 2 may,0830hrs,in your secondary school uniform.well that's because they told me too late,i couldn't buy the uniform.soooo,i'm praying hard hopefully someone else will be in their sec school uniform,so i won't be the odd one out.and therefore,being the "distinguished figure" in the school assembly.now,that is not good.because i'd be known as The One With The Sec School Uniform.

but well,i feel very blessed with this school thing - just a huge burden off my head.yes,i'd be in school.i mean,no more rotting at home,morose and unlively a living corpse,AND being a housewife.well,who's complaining?

oh right - me.

so you sweet,lovely people.now,i'm going to get busy with life.you know,i have a freaking school.i know,you know,i know how desperate i am for that.=) hee.

anywho,after that ite thing settled,i went to meet farah hor for a super big birthday date.she promised me last year :"next year your bdae,i'll treat you movie,lunch and TWO presents".

aww.i know,sweeto farah hor.=)

so she was late.i mean very late.waited for almost an hour.and she was waiting for me at somerset like an idiot,and i was waiting for her at orchard,like an idiot.=)

we just choose the movie on the spot.settled on Aquamarine,which was worth my her money.

took neoprint at the Heeren since awhile.and it turned out okay.AND thanks to that,we were 10 minutes late for the movie.cheers?

so here's the pics!!






































whee.

okay, i'm off to bed.big day tmr.have to bug mel with lots of questions.just her luck she's in my school.heh.

cheery deary berry cheers.=)

that question??

Woke up early today,just for the fun of it.Having nothing better to do,I settled on reading the new Reader's Digest.-____- At least I have somehting to keep myself from worrying,about what I would be worried about.

Everything was happy,happy,HAPPY until the "25 of Life's Toughest Questions(answered)!" part.So there were some questions that I wouldn't think of asking if I'm asked to do so.But the question #7 goes like this:

By what age should you know what to do with your life?

(sounds familiar.not?)

A: Any moment now,This used to be a question the young asked.Now it's a quandary for baby boomers.The Bureau of Labor Statistics reports that younger boomers have dned the American ideal of picking a job and sticking with it.Between the ages of 18 and 36,these boomers held an average of 9.6 jobs.That's a lot of exploration.The wisdom of elders in all cultures seems to be this: There's nothing to do with a life but live it. As Ghandi pointed out, "Almost anything you do will be insignificant,but it is very important that you do it."

Okay.Someone please enlighten me.I don't know what the hell this means.I don't see any answer to the question,actually.It's very long-winded an answer for a one-sentence question!!Haiyoh.

(still trying to make sense out of it.)

AND enough of this,I think I'll go find myself something to do.

Cheers.

bitchy life

alright,i can't cheat me.

i'm feeling morose right now - very confused.the whole school thing aggravates me.
and i let it engulf my will,the whole chunk of it - i left it in my head,like a boiling mass of unsolved misery.
it is causing a pandemonium in my freaking head.

yes,like i said,life is being a bitch.

but let's just leave the baloney just the way it is.

and i'll plaster a fake smile,wear "that mask."

i'm happy,people.

no,really.=]

(haha hehe huhu?)

cheer up,the worst is yet to come.

The life's a bitch,right now.Just when I thought that everything's going to get better, this Miss Shikin from God-knows-which-ite comes along and tells me,
"there's no vacancy lah.But there's this another course..electronics engineering...or I'll put you in the waiting list..."

Oh,thank you very much.Now I have to start worrying again.And maybe curse some people,too.

Waiting list means waiting a little longer.Maybe one month.Maybe two,or three.Or a year?But yes,the point is WAIT.And that means that I can jolly well sit at home,trying to do something.And still put on that facade,pretending everything is hunky-dory.

(now,can you see me beaming,and grinning like a kid seeing tons of ice-cream tubes in front of her?)

No,of course not.I'm doing anything,BUT smiling.

This just sucks,you know.Back to square fucking one.

I'm taking it too hard,not?Of course,I know,I should be more optimistic.

They say,always look on the bright side of life....*let's sing it* So here,to make myself happy,I've written myself a list of why NO SCHOOL is GOOD:

1. I can wake up late.And I mean.LATE.
2. Watch the amount of tv I missed out during 'O' level.
3. Can use the computer almost the whole day.
4. Go out anytime,anywhere I want.
5. I'm always free to go out if anyone asked me out.
6. Can help Cik Sam at home.
7. Study for my retaking 'O's.
8. Haidar to play with,if I'm bored.
9. Get allowance if I go out.(!!)
10. Don't have to wear green,and yellowish gold uniform.

Yes,it's very "healthy" to make yourself feel good,right?But then,I was thinking why oh why,NO SCHOOL is NOT GOOD

1. No stress,boring life.
2. Life mission now,is to break a sudoku record(!!)
3. I'm becoming like a erm,housewife. housekeeper.
4. no school = no P.E = I'm putting weight.
5. No one to go out with,since everyone is at school.
6. Boredom strikes and I read the dictionary(!!!)
7. I don't get allowance everyday. =[

Okay.As you can see,no school is better.(yes,I'm making myself happy,shut up.)

I think I'll stop with this school crap.It's making me crazy,anyway.

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Alright.Right now,as I'm typing this entry,I'm sneezing too much and coughing irritatingly.I've been calling out people's name.And I don't even know them.Help?One minute I go, "Hassshhhiimm!" I.Swear.I.Don't.Know.Any.Hashim. Then suddenly after that,I go, "Ahhhh Chiimm!" Yes,I don't know him too,three,four. Then,I coughed,which is erm,nothing unusual.Just "errhek,errhek!".

And I think I'll stop talking about coughing,or sneezing,or flu.Or anything to do with sickness ehh.

Gahh,I know,I'm bored.

I'm bored sick.Sickly bored. I'm bored,of being bored.I'm sick and tired,of being sick and tired.I'm worried that I worry too much.And trying to kill time,is killing me!!

But what to do...LIFE GOES ON,BAYBEH!!-___-

You know,there's a saying.... where there's a will,there's 500 relatives a way.

And I'll stop being melodramatic.

I read somewhere in newspaper today...

Cheer up,the worst is yet to come.

So true,so true.So everybody,

Cheers.=)

(get this: I'm being locked out of my own bedroom,because sweet Haidar is using it to draw a b'dae card for us.And I'm suppose to NOT know anything.Hee.)

the carnival

so yesterday's carnival was not bad.damn,the school is old.

decided to go with mel,since it was a last minute thing.freaked out when i saw only students there,no one in home clothes(except the teachers,of course.)

i swear i thought it was a school affair.gahh.

saw acap,musfirah,yani,and the guys in the band.wander around,looking for farah.it was scorching hot,and i wanted to give up and just go home.farah came and screamed like a mad woman.wandered around,somemore.mel bought me marshmellow with chocolate.super delicious!! -_-

saw some of the teachers - mrs abbas still as tall as she was.chatted with her and mr shahril for awhile.ms kaur super hot.mr hafiz kudut semacam.mel and me was hiding from him the whole time.erm,i don't know why,actually.

basically,i was there like two hours,and yes,it was worth it.

mr fathul sat on the dunking machine,and for awhile i thought the board was going to break.really.so he was up there a little too long.partly because no one could get him down.partly because it was expensive,and maybe everyone thought he doesn't worth the money.they almost got mr hafiz to do it,until he backed off when he heard the price.haiyoh.16 bucks just to attempt to get him in the water(!!)

yes,thirty minutes later,fathul was still there,waiting for people to dunk him in.(well,that's of course hard - you need a basketball to do that.) and meanwhile,it doesn't help that everyone was basking in the sun,and getting "suntanned" while he become more dark.

some blessed soul finally got him down.and that was a sight,man.someone mention something like a whale and a big splash.hahahahha.discipline master,drenched,and everyone cheering like mad.wheehee.-_____-

IT WAS WORTH MY SATURDAY!!!! =)

well,that was basically the highlight of the day.

if only i have a camera to capture the moment.gahh.

during the finale,while they were assembling,mel and me chatted.about old times,and missing that and this.missing being a hellboy junior,the bench,the food,the toilet(!!) blah blah.

yes,i was not the only one missing good,old tampines ehh.=)



and i had pepsi,coke and sarsi all in the same day,yesterday.

and it's killing my throat,now.

cheers?

ramble random

This is going to be one of the random post,again.Read if you want.If not,then don't bother read.

I haven't been blogging this days because,I'm really plain lazy.And bored,AND busy,too.

I have a new friend.Her name is Nur Izyan.She's four-going-fourteen.Affectionately called 'adik', a.k.a mak nenek.She's chatty,sweeetttt and very manjeh! <3 And she call me 'awak' and i call me 'kita' and vice versa. (I know,cute kann) -___-

Have I mention that 'Dia' is getting less dramatic without Dwi? Well,'Dia' is getting less dramatic without Dwi.

Last Wednesday was the last mandarin class.It was alright.Besides not having to rush every Wednesday for the class,or coming either extra early or extra late,I pretty much will miss the class.The teacher's accent,and her tissuesss(she's very hygienic),the memorable fart,the doodles on yana's paper,all the laughing - at teacher,at us,at everyone else.And of course,I'll miss the classmates,Sabariah and her 'gang',Syafik,Nurliwhats-her-name and Pak Sarip.Especially Pak Sarip!!!

The Most Inspiring Man I Ever Met. (awwwwwwww.-_-)

I've been trying hard to study and concentrate on the books,but I bloody can't!!! Too many distractions, and of course,my lack of motivation.I'm afraid of taking things for granted.Again.But I think I am now.Help?

In an attempt to start study seriously,I went to the library to study on my own just now - bad idea.It was alright for the first hour,but I got sick of crapping over the Math that I picked a novel,and read it - just to take a break for awhile.

Well,let's just say it was a loooonnngg break.Haiyoh.

I met Farah Hor just now for awhile.Just the usual lunch and chat.At one point,there was just silence,and we don't know what to say anymore.And at another point,we she make up stories about my godfather(yess,i have one.) - a very talented musician known all over Tampines.That was so cruel.How could you,Farah?How could you?How.Could.You.Do.This.To.Me.??!!

And I thought you're my best friend.Tsk Tsk.Hee.=)

I am having a sore throat and a flu.I think I am having a fever.Not hoping,just thinking.

My hands,legs and eyes are itching for a good movie.Any good shows or not,anyone?

Oprah's show have been a little bit "sensitive" lately.There's always a heart-wrenching story,or an inspiring one.And tears will just started to trickle down my cheeks.But I think maybe it's just me.Gaahhh.

And oh,the birthday is coming soooonn.But I'm not excited or anything.So yes,you good,nice,sweet people who are thinking of buying me a present,please don't.

Don't.

Don't.

Don't.

Don't you not give,GIVE!!!

Yana just want a big car for her birthday.But NO.I'm not going to ask you for that...

I want one that comes with a fake license,can?

I know - it's not too much to ask for.

Cheers.

ps;This post is with capital letters in it,because I actually bother pressing the 'Shift'.Huhu.-____-


And I'll post again next time,if I have nothing better to do ehh.

good news

i didn't use the computer this whole day,until now,in an attempt to abstain from erm,i don't-know-what.=) but,but,but..i can't wait any longer to post this.

you see,after the previous post,i was really,really down and all.but yeah,out of desperate-ness - and also,thanks to mum's erm,unrequited stubborn-ness(if that makes any sense at all),i called the MOE,and literally begged them to give me a second chance.(!!) they said there's many people appealing too - and for that i feel relief!!, and i could e-mail them an appeal too.so i did it.

i have to sound at least intelligent,AND convincing,right?

I am writing here to appeal for a chance to retake the 'O' level this year,as a private candidate.

I want to retake my 'O' level so as to have a better chance,in getting to a polytechnic,and get the diploma of my choice.

I understand that the admission as a private candidate for next year's 'O' level is over,but I hope the MOE would consider my appeal,and allow me to retake the 'O' level.

Sorry for any inconvenience caused,and I hope to hear your reply soon.

Again,I appeal for your consideration in allowing me to be a private candidate.

Thank you.

Nur Iyliani Bte Omar


yes,i know.it doesn't that intelligent at all.and i suck at begging.i mean REALLY suck.

but heck,i got accepted ehh.(tho,have to pay extra 50 bucks)

okay,i'm feeling alive now.yay-ness.-_____-

so yess,i think i'll end this post now.going back to the books i ditched that day.


erm,now where did i put them ehh?

haiyoh.

=)

randomly.

i just feel like writing something - just for no particular reason.i'll just randomly write the whats-been-happening and stuff.and maybe let you make what of it.or not.

well,this sitting at home is obviously killing me,but maybe there's something to it.you see,throughout these one month or so,i pretty much don't know why i'm still actually alive and breathing.i mean,i spend the whole day just doing something either useful for others(like helping with the chores) or very useless (to say the least,watching the tv,even a cooking show).

if you people actually read the newspaper,or heard about it,there's this woman who gave up on living,and just spend the whole time,days,months(years?) sitting on her sofa and watch tv.first,she didn't want to get up,then she really couldn't get up.then,she really rot to death there.

(yes.now,no more talking to about rotting at home ehh.)

anyway,about staying home for quite a number of months now,i think there's really more to it - like maybe this is just temporary.to be optimistic,and also according to yana,maybe my being at home is a "blessing in disguise".cik sam was having some leg problem,and i could help her out some way or another.go to buy the groceries,or fetching the kids from school.and there's me to accompany cik sumi for her long chemo session - to buy her lunch etc.

and when i got the rejection letter from ngeeann yesterday,tho there was some fallacies and half-hoping it's accepted,i was kind of relieved i didn't get it.

no,this is no false bravado.i really was relieved.i mean,info-comm technology?i don't see myself enjoying it in the future.(my heart is set for a business admin!!)

and ite?the one i desperately didn't want to be in,and also disagreement from concerned friends who think i won't fit in too well in ite.

well,let's just say it's my only hope now.just so i can move on with life,like everyone else.

if you people bother to scroll down and read the previous entries,where i wrote about school stuff,and the revelation of my desperate-ness to want to go poly and all - to say the least,i was not in my right frame of mind. i didn't make wise decisions,and being ever fickle.

well,now it's over.i know what i want,and i'm working for it.

thank god for that,really.

maybe these long months have not been wasted.i got to know what i really,really really want,and i know the ugly side of myself a little better - fickle,indecisive,too emotional,cares too much about what others think,and very very VERY,jealous.(!!)

and hopefully i can change that ehh.-____-

(of course,maybe a healthy jealousy wouldn't hurt kann)

alright,i think i'm done.for those who are still reading this,thank you.

i know,this post is in a serios mode.and kind of boring,for your liking.but then again...

this is a free world,i can write anything i want.


cheers.=)

the food/the mms/the babe/my crush

i didn't realise how our dear country is soooooo popular for its food,until yesterday.

you see,yesterday,we had the urge to dine out together-gether,no special occasion uh.just a family dinner.cik jai couldn't make it the last minute,but we were determined to go also,in our attempt to search for good food.(chey drama ehh.) -__-

problem : we have no transport besides either a cab or the bus.but pak long and mak long came to save the day!!!hahahaha.=) and before we were getting ready,the cik alils came.and they joined us,too.

the first stop (not.): bedok corner
at first,we decided to go to bedok corner,but after cik jai's last minute cancelation,the makciks changed plan.(i still don't get it,why,actually.)

the first stop: pasar baru a.k.a new geylang market's coffeeshop
i was so not excited to go there.first of all,i know the food is crap,minus the goreng pisang.secondly,i want to have western food,which,obviously is not there.thirdly,it's too near.just.so i was really happy-happy when everyone ended up not wanting to eat there.whee.=)

the search continues....

the second stop: mak's place(rumah mak aku lahh.heh.)
the food look super delicious.got western,muslim,AND indian food.yummy-mummy mama-mia!!! but but but,it was crowded.i mean really crowded.like almost half the lau pa sat's crowd like that.and the only seats available was jsut for two.and we have ten of us.aiyoyo.

annndddddd the search continues,again....

the third and finally stop: bedok foodcourts (and cik jai's)
all tired and hungry,we finally settled for "tapao" food at some bedok foodcourts and dine at cik jai's.

haiyoh.believe it or not,the whole thing was almost one hour.plus all the driving.butttttt...it was worth it lahh.my fish 'n' chips was superb.perfecto.delicious-lor.al-sedap bin lazat.

(yes,i went to three places,just for the fish'n'chips.ahak ahak.)

then after dinner,i stay for awhle,and played lego with haidareh.(it's been awhile lahh.)-____- AND he told me his 'weird' dream.(the one he told yana first,and not me.hmph) hee.<3


alright,now..TODAY.dear kak normah gave birth in the unearthly hours.thanks to that,i got an mms from kak aidahzu at freaking 4am and woke me up.but of course,didn't bother to check it and just went back to sleep.in the morning,finally check it,and there - this cute little babe smiling.being blur me,i asked her if that is aisyah(the one with the newhair headdo and a pair of stud.) cos she looked VERY different.and she text-ed me back...

IT"S KAK NORMAH's BABY!!!!

wahh.happy beb.i feel so old,but happy.and adult-ty.but shocked.and old.

so ladies and gentlemen,this is the new niece,joining my clan of "anak2 sdare",
Nur Hidayah Bte Samri.

and she's hot,and cute.and pretty.=)
















see.i told you so.she's smiling and actually looking at the camera okay.

god,i have a crush on her.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.<3

that youngest,short and suay one speaks.

hahahaahahha.i just read yana's blog.she "replied" about my previous post about being a twin.super funny but true lahh. -____- she mentioned the one where we wore the same clothes yesterday,the whole day throughout.yes,it's true.

i was actually irritated by that.i was the one who wore it first,and suddenly she wore it too,without realising it.haiyoh.and yesterday,we were supposed to go downstairs together,to buy lunch at the kfc.but we didn't end up going.partly because,we were lazy,partly because we were wearing the same tee,and she didn't want to change.neither do i.(why should i do that sehh.gahh)

and we ended up just eating instant noodles at freaking 5pm.haiyoh-yoh-yoh-yoh.

talking about double troubleSOME.

gahh.

meanwhile,while i'm rushingly typing this post,the irritatingly loud rock music is playing.and bro's checking out his new laptop.god,i'm jealous jealous jealous.

oh,did i mention?the date to apply for pte candidate is over,last week.and i didn't apply.and that suck.i chucked away my math book already,to collect the dust.

yess,i know,everything that could possibly go wrong is going wrong.

and here's another post that ends with a bad note.


cheery deary fucking cheers ehh.

the bloody twin speaks.

i'm really tired of waiting.it's very frustrating.like,everyone's already got a school (which by the way,you better be thankful if you got one!!) and here i am,waiting waiting waiting.sheesh.

but of course,being nice me,i will spare you all the baloney and whining.at least i'm doing something very useful - like doing my maths tys all over again.-__- yess,in case you haven't know,or i didn't tell you,i'm retaking the paper next year,again.not that i fail or anything (got a 4.) but i just want to make myself happy,and satisfied,you see. (though of course,some of you might think that it doesn't make sense retaking the paper and go through the whole process will make me happy)

but yeah.i'll be really happy.-_____-

anyway,besides looking foward to having a bloody school,i can't wait for the new hp!!whoo.=)

but i'm still discussing about which to buy etc with yana.i want 'that',she'd rather 'this',but she want 'that' also.then she see 'another one',i also one that 'another one'.but i also want 'that'.gahh.that's the problem with being twins.i want what she wants.she wants what i want.but sometimes,we don't want what the other want,and we buy what we want.but if she got one,then i have to buy one.and if i got one,she'll buy one.just so we have what the other one have,so we won't "regret" it later.and if we want the same thing,sometimes we'll end up wanting the one with the same colour.that will make us having almost everything identical.it's just not planned.it's just the way it is.(and i won't just not buy something i like just because she's buying the exact same thing).

yess,such complicated complication of being a twin of a pair of twins.

but of course,we are very different individuals.i mean bloody different.you can actually compare us in any way,but would appreciate it if you don't. you see,the last time i was compared to yana, some blessed soul commented -
" how come she gets to go jc, and you don't?"

i say,should i make an appeal to the M.O.E for that?

bloody idiot.


and what was i talking about,again?

gahh.






.

miss the school.

people racking brain over their maths,chemistry whatever.

and i'm racking my brain over the sudoku.



god,i miss school like hell.

sounds familiar,not?

gahh.

random

alright,updates.=)

be warned eh,this is going to be a super long post.

so i haven't been blogging for four days (it's a record ehh). been pretty busy with stuff.like family functions,school stuff and my new toy,the sudoku-minesweeper mini game.-_____- i like i like. and right now,i'm talking to farah hor and fandi at msn.she's at school,free period.he's at school,orientation.(now,why am i not in school,again?gahh.)

besides getting 'busy' with all that stuff,i was just lazy to blog long-nothings.heh.=)

so on friday,went to this seminar at ite simei.(yess,i move on,finally).it was alright.and the school is super nice lahh.=) after that we went to rp to order bro's laptop for his school.(jealous jealous jealous me.)

on saturday,we had the marhaban thing at abg samad's.annndd it was my first time seeing the baby.-___- aww.it was super cute.and tiny.and sweet-looking.i think i have a crush on her!heh.it was really funn.not like weddings.we don't have to do any work,really.we just relax,talk and eat eat eat.(yes,like my typical day at home actually.heh)-__- we "played" mrt.(it's not a game.) just sit in one row and pretend we are in a train.hahahha.i know,silly us!! =) and of course,we ate a lot lot lot.the nasi briyani was super delicious.plus the chicken.i had three plates of it,i think.-_- harith and haidar and this cute girl was doodling at kak myra's book.and it was erm,nice?lol.cute lahh budak2 tu sumer.hee.i decided to take a picture of them,but with kak myra's cam.so here's the pictures!!!















kak arfah carrying aisyah beb,while the marhaban ladies cut her little hair.see the bow on her head?cute-miut sehh.-___-


















that cute girl yana was trying to matchmake with haidar.heh.






















yes.she,again.





















and here's their doodling art of work, "sponsored" by kak myra.-__-


after that,we headed off home by cab,earlier than usual,cos we had a big event to attend the next day - farurrazi's selawat at expo,again!!!-_____- but the cab driver was super fast sehh.(i mean,the cab he drive uh.) he really zoom pass four cars,i counted.haiyoh.darah up ,beb.mum was like mumbling doa banyak2.(i was really wondering if i'd survive the ride to attend the expo thing.gahh.) basketball betul uh that taxi driver.aiyoyo.

sunday's expo thing was really really funn.gue suka banget,dong.according to ustad,if he is reliable,there were 70,000 people ok!!(but i suspect it's more than that uh.) the expo hall was really crowded tauu.(kalahkan book fair sale.heh.) annddd we were there from 830 to 1,tauu,just sitting and listen to music,syarahan,and selawat together-gether.-___- hell yeah,it was tiring.but really worth it lahh.=)

and i think i'm done now.long long post ehh.

oh,did anyone watch miss singapore universe yesterday?had a good laugh kann.huhu.-______-

cheers.=)

bravo superwomen

i'm just back from the hospital.now,i'm not going to write all about what i did there in details ehh,it's always the same thing - watch tv.=) i'm not complaining,really. i watched three movies in six hours sitting there,how's that for fun?hee.i like.-_____- lucky for me,i haven't watch any of the movies before (pride&prejudice,wimbeldon.and love actually) whoohoo.movie marathon tauu.gerek beb.ahak ahak.=)

the funny thing was,as today was full house,all the patients were competing for the toilet.heh.really,i'm not kidding.so it's like,when one is done,there must be someone going in after that.hee.=) (and one person minimum,went in like twice ok) oh,i was watching silent tv for awhile then,cos there were two old women chattering loudly,much of everybody's irritation.haiyoh.and i kept snatching away the controller from others to browse through the channels.huhu.-____-

i had mcchicken,fries and coke for lunch,again.and we dropped by delifrance for some croissants and tuna,and garlic bread.nice ahh.(farah hor,we should have some lunch there,some day ehh.)

it's really an experience,meeting all these patients.they look weak on the exterior and maybe put on a brave facade,but yess,i think they are really like very super hero like that.-______- i mean,they have to have needles on them,for more than four hours,and once a week(!!).gahh.i'd have died.i almost cried seeing one of them closing her eyes,trying hard not to scream.aww.

there were three brain cancer patients,two with hats,and one with a wig.the one with the wig looks healthy from afar,and i really thought she was just accompanying a family member.i almost mention to cik sumi, "nyonya tu pakai wig sehh.cun ehh." but of course,luckily,i didn't - she sat at the patient's seat.oops? yess,i tried to shut up after that.

and the best part of it all,despite their pain,they could talk about their disease,sharing with others,and still smile,laugh and joke.-_____-

bravo,women.=)

it's raining,thundering and lightning,man!!

as i'm writing this entry,it's raining outside.and the continous thundering keeps making me want to shriek and jump out of my seat - but i didn't.it's like very peaceful (too peaceful) then suddenly boom there goes the thunder. and everyone's sleeping peacefully,outside,despite those unpredictably loud thunder.gahh.

(how the hell can they sleep through these irritating loud thunder?!)

but anyway the cool weather's fine - just perfect for a nap(of course,without the thunder) =) i'm just really bored right now,waiting for a decent programme to start(erm,maybe the re-runs of "extreme gourmet"?) before Oprah's show at 6.whee. =) (anyone watched yesterday's oprah's?jennifer aniston's super hot ehh.)-___-

yess,i have nothing to write about actually.plus,the thunder annddd the lightning(!!) is killing me,literally.i'm really scared of lightning cos they are just so um,freaky.

my very imaginative, and creative mind runs very wildly.i always feel that the lightning can like go through the window panes and struck anyone near it,and he/she will be "electrified",and will have burn skin.aghh.(is it true?is it,is it?!)

(yess,my fault that i didn't pay attention in any of my science classes at school.shut up ehh.)

so before i get struck by lightning,have some frizzy hair and a free sun tan (not!),i think i'll go snuggle up in bed,under the blanket,and try to sleep.hee.-_______-

cheers.

mini picnic/ari/indon/acheh/me

so the mini picnic yesterday was not grand,but was just alright. -__- not the typical kind of picnic,but i enjoyed myself.=) saw a mini frog,which can really camouflages itself.eeww.we thought it was dead since it didn't move even an inch,then us,being "brilliant",decided to come near it,since it was dead - or so we thought.and the frog suddenly jump.hahahha.i was shrieking like mad.but was all excited ahh.very the "jakun-ish".hehe.=)

we got loads of good food.-__- and we had a big card made for cik yah by the kids.it was her birthday yesterday,so happy birthdaayyy!! =) basically yesterday,we were just slacking at the beach enjoying the food.i like i like.-____-

i had this bizarre idea of going to plaza spura to catch a glimpse of ari wibowo life in action!!hahahha.=) of course,we didn't end up going there,luckily.anyone seen the front page of the malay newspaper?whoo.loads of makcik2 ahh,many amah indon also.(i don't believe he don't wear any lipstick.haiyoh,liar.)

if gue gi sane,pastinye nggak tahan,dong.tak boleh angkat!!! hee.

yesterday was like an indon-day for me.gue si cinta banget sama bahasa indon sekarang!!weird but nice ahh.my only tv time yesterday was spent with watching an indon vcd!!!heh.=))

oh,do you know? i'm from acheh. my roots,i mean.cool ehh.-_____-

so basically,my race is - ACHEHNESE/BOYANESE

kira gue ni 20.589172% indon,yah?-__-

ho ho ho.i like i like i like banget,dooonng!!!

huhu.


ps;thanks to farah hor,for the "blogging crash course via sms." (i tried your advice,it didn't work.the post is still a mess.)gahh.

that date

last friday was awesome.i had the long-awaited and keep-postponed date with dearest shuhui.-__- whee.she had to do some shopping,with her other friends.so i went for luncheon with farah hor,before meeting her.=) met farah hor at opposite the school.gahh.been a long time since i went to the school area lahh.and god,i just realise i miss the place.haix.

so anyway,as i reach there,from afar,i could see justin toh skipping across the road to the coffee shop.haha.that looks so familiar.(i used to sit in front of class,near the door,and could see whatever is happening across the road.hee.) and i swear that justin toh-skipping-across-the road is soooo familiar a sight.ahak ahak.=) so anyway,farah hor was a little late because of some "girl talk".(thank god,i'm over that thing!! huhu.) i was afraid of running into hellboy,so whenever a black car drove out of the school's main gate,i'll go all panicky.hehe. -__- when farah hor was finally done,we walk to tm.and meanwhile, mr shahril was acting like mr "famous',in his car,waving to anyone who called out to him.hee. :o

so farah hor was being nice,accompanying me for lunch and walked around with me,while i was waiting for shuhui to finished her shopping.we sat at McD's for awhile,drink milkshake,took some pics,and walk around. somemore.okay,so i forced her to stay a little longer so i won't be alone.huhu.(no,i don't feel guilty for that ehh.) at least i was nice enough to walk her back to the bus interchange.=) (ok,fine.she forced me to,by running away with the milkshake.haiyoh.)

so here's some of the pics we took,while passing the time.=)























i like her jepun hair.hee.=)





but i like to mess it better.








































what's with the crooked smile,and blinked eyes.i purposely didn't smile.heh.

























AGAIN.







and these pics just remind us of someone.hehe.=)




























erm,oops? heh.


































huhu.=)


alright,after the "camwhoring" and aching legs,i send farah hor off,and went to look for shuhui.she was at the F men F woman store,still shopping!!haiyoh.*roll roll the eyes* after she finally done with that (about 30 mins later!!!),we went off to buy the tickets,for the 4pm show.-__- walked around for awhile.talk to her about me.and her.and finally gave her the bdae present i bought last december(!!!) ho ho ho.

so the movie was super not scary but just a little.and funny.and sad.i swear i wanted to cry.(but of course,i didn't.) so the very touching,man.she shrieked like hell,all the "scary parts" hahahaha.=) she made me scared,the way she shriek.like pontianak like that.hahahaha.-___- (shuhui,don't flood my tagboard after reading this ahh.hee.)

and here's the pics we took with her brand new phone.(i tell you,i am not jealous ahh!)
















that's just a fake shock face.dorm is really not that scary.heh.


















our attempt to snap a picture in the cinema.there's just our teeth,if you look carefully.hee.





















THIS reminds me of someone.hahahha.-____-

































my angel in disguise.chey.




















me,the handphone handler - which explains the nice pictures.
shut up ehh.


okay,i'm done,finally!!!

one of the best dates -___- and of course,least spend money!!hehe.=)
thanks for treating me,dearest shuhui!!<3

cheers.

it's ok,it's alright!!

it was 2 am, and i was still wide awake,staring into the dark ceiling.the shrill silence was deafening,and it just aggravates me more.those unwanted fermenting thoughts just keep making it worse.

i'm not going to talk too much about it,just that,yesterday was the longest night - i cried myself too sleep.

no more tears too spare.
my crying room is already flooded with it.

now,all i can't do is just pray so He could show me the way.


but for now,let's just not get into the depressing,sad mode.

-______________- *wide wide big fake smile*

i still need to blog about the already-basi friday date,but i can't - still waiting for pics from farah hor.gahh. (and partly because i really don't have the mood to load the many many pics. maybe today,or another day ehh.=)

oh yess.you know why i'm not out at jamiyah on this lovely sunday morning?

we skip class!!!whoo. we should do this more often sehh.ahak ahak.=) going to some picnic later,but not swimming.just hope it's going to be fun ahh,worthy of my weekend getaway.(chey)

alright,i'm done.will update soonest, lovely people!!! -_______-

big belated belated belated happy burpdae shoutout to liana anak atan!!!! =)

shoot me please.

no,i'm not going to blog about yesterday,for now.because i have much,much more important thing to worry about.yess,that issue.

my bro got to go to republic poly.i'm like happy for him and all,but kind of sad.last time,when i received my result,we were like "iya-iya" lahh want to go to poly together,tho maybe not the same school.that would be like cool,right?but no.look where i'm going - nowhere particular.and i couldn't hold that bravado facade any longer.i just broke down,and lock myself in the room,ostracize myself.all alone,like a fucking loser.

and you know what hurts me most?

not because of me,possibly being in ite.not also being too overwhelmed by the revelation of reality,being too late.

it's because of them,my own family,being their concern selfs,wanting to discuss about my next move - which is like the last thing that i really want to talk about thankyouverymuch.and i still have that tiny glint of hope that i could possibly have the poly result - positive.

maybe,maybe not.

like i said,a slim chance is still a chance.


and they keep asking, "ite boleh ehh?" - just for reassurance.


and i say,

like i have a choice.

soonest-est

i'd love to blog about yesterday,and i have loads to blog about.but i can't now,cos i haven't receive some of the pics.

so yeah,maybe i'll do it tonight.maybe tmr.maybe monday.

maybe.

but soonest lahh. -____-


ps; i've decide what i have to decide,and i'm happy with the decision.
thanks dearest friends for your concerns and opinions.<3


cheers.=)