bad habit is bad.

i'm broke.

well,at least i'd like to think that.because i really feel guilty spending my own money,subconsciously.i can just go out one day with 40 bucks and went home with few cents.it's just a habit.a bad one,that is.i just love spending money(also known as splurging).it gives me this sense of satisfaction,i guess.since i go out like once in awhile.sometimes maybe just three times a months.(pathetic,i know)

the problem is,i just realise i spend way too much money only after i spend all of them.
that is bad.very bad.

and i can't stop this habit.

the bigger problem is that i spend my money on everything that i really don't need at all.
like a zinger meal,when i'm full.
a large coke,when i'm not going to share it with anybody.
nachos meal for movies,eventhough sometimes i get sick of the cheese.
and fries and ice-cream for me to indulge in on my way home.

that doesn't include countless neoprints i took everytime i went out with friends.

yeah,i have a confession.

i'm a super bloodysplurge-r.(erm,someone who splurge)

but i can't help it.whenever i got out,it's to watch a movie.and movies to me,are incomplete without some nachos.and i would be out long,so i need some lunch.big lunch.

but i need to save up some loads of money for some other more important stuffs.like a few tops and jeans for school.and maybe a digi cam that me and sis have been eyeing since awhile.and maybe a laptop,which i would probably need later.

sheesh.why doesn't everything comes for free?

so please don't ask me out for a movie.unless you want to treat me for lunch and everything else.i'll be nice and pay for my own ticket.

cos you know, i'm broke.=(

ahak ahak.

here's the pic of dear cik aisha,the babe.


















cute lahh.

i'm just excited about seeing her soon.whoo.
darling wait for cik yani ehh.=) hee.

nothing much to blog about.but nevertheless.i've no complain whatsoever.life is goooodd baybeh!! bak kata pepatah from dear mr ustad farrurazi...

that's the way...ahak...ahak!!

huhu.

3 bebs and a baby.

i don't know where to start.

i had a movie date with my two dear besties.and i have a BIG NEWS.

big news first...i'm a makcik!!!!again...whee.=) so apparently,kak arfah gave birth yesterday,and we only knew about it today.but nvm.i so the happy jumping jumping lahh.hee.it's my fifth,and it's a she!! (of course,by fifth i meant,anak sedare lahh)

so hopefully,i get to see the baby soon lahh.must be very gorgeously cute.welcome to this world,aisha nur rahmah!!=)

now about my movie date.

it started with both of them being late.(ok,i was extra extra early,but still...)then we just walked around before the movie start,which is at 1225.had a little car race again.blah blah.annnddd when we finally settled down,i just started fidgeting.lots of irritating adverts and all.i swear it was long,i gave up waiting and started munching the nachos.

the movie was absolutely full of gore.and i felt like screaming everytime,but not so loud lahh.was over-excited that i kept punching farah with my elbow.huhu.sori hor hor hor.i won't waste this space writing about fd3,you people watch yourself and judge it.for a start,i never watched fd1 or 2.but this movie rock lahh.must watch,must watch!!

lucky i didn't drop off any nachos.pfft.

there was a little awkwardness when we met up.well,when you haven't seen each others for ages,it's kind of awkward right?you don't know what to talk about etc.hope they both had fun,cos i really did.=)

what better way to spend your weekend than hanging out with dearest-est besties.whoo.thanks darlings!!!=) hope to see you soon,baybehs!!!

aww.i'm so going to miss them lahs.again.

till then,give me a final destination 4.bring it on!!!=) whoo.























shoo.

life's a bitch.for now.

i hate my life right now.

it revolves around two kids who are getting more irritating,utterly noisy.and fighting over stupid little stuff.
and its getting on my nerve.

and i help to do the marketing everyday since my aunt hurt her leg and have problems walking..
i have no complains about it,unless i really don't know how that stuff i'm going to buy looks like.
i know nuts about anything green,edible and have many cousins who look similar as them.
all vegetables looks the same to me.green and yucky.
so i have to ask some aunties whom i think should be reliable.should be.
but no,don't judge people easily.
these aunties are liars.smiling liars.
does it hurt their ego to say "oh,makcik tak tau lah nak."?
shoot.and they cheated this "innocent","fragile", know-nuts-about-food-except-eat-them teen.
and made my aunt (who hurt her leg) make her way to the supermarket just to have it changed.
because of me. two liaring makciks.
and it even made me and sis almost killing each other.
and me being a bitch.oops.

i'm done complaining.
surely not a good way to start a "very fine weather" day.
gahh.

my life is monotonous.
everyday the same old routine.
it gets tiringly boring.
basically it sucks.

and i can't do anything about it.sheesh.

can't wait for school to start,really.
it doesn't excite me at the thought of dearest friends not going to be with me later.
maybe a new environment might helps.a hopefully greener pasture.
a more "thrilling" school life.
no more whining about stupid veggies or annoying arguments.

no no no!!

no jalan,no lorong!!!! (read:no way)

REAL frenzy

i finally watched a freaking football match,since awhile.woohoo!! woke brudder up at 330am,so he'd watch with me.semangat-ness...=)

haix.been awhile since i did this lahh.watching football match in early hours when people are still sleeping,snoring and all.gereks.so real madrid lose to arsenal.sheesh.make my darah go up lahh watching that match.tiring to watch ronaldo with all the babats trying to run for the ball.and then couldn't score even one.very frustrating.agh.it was one hell of a match.90 minutes but one pathetic superb goal from henry.horn-ry.whatever.

annnddd,just so we didn't wake the makciks up,we lower the tv volume to the minimum.basically,yeah.we were watching silent tv.kind of like charlie chaplin time.hahahaha.and we curse and critic in whispers.pfft.that is the bummer.you don't watch football matches without shouting and cheering.it's just boring.aghhh.

thanks bro for watching it with me.=)

i think he didn't really care about that real vs arsenal match.he's hardcore red devil-ian.(whatever you call them lah ehh..)hee.

ok enough crapping.

i think i'm done blogging.will figure what to do next after this.thought of going out but all dear friends are at school lahh.shoot.believe it or not,i'm still missing school.grr.

andddd again.if i get bored within this 4 hours,will blog some crap.

shoo.

sneeze-y day.

i said i'll blog if i'm really really really bored.
so here i am.

i'm getting the flu since yesterday,and it's getting irritating.very.
went through a sneezing marathon the whole of yesterday.agh.
i think i'll survive today.
maybe.maybe not.
gahh.

so the sneezing helps me to erm,pass the time.
but not much.
i get bored easily.
and to top it all off.
farah hor haven't text me who's her ft.
which i secretly hope it's hellboy.hahhaahha.(farah hor..sorry hor hor hor) =)

it really doesn't help that dear-est haidar forced me out of bed at freaking 8am.
just to send him to school.haiyo.
and his school start at 8am.shoot.
so i had to rush with my toilet time.

and that's basically how my day started.
chaotic.

and i'm figuring out what to do after this.

achhhhoooo!!!

school sick

i don't feel like blogging.
it gets boring,cos my life is pretty mundane right now.
and i really don't have anything to blog about.

i was online two times today.
and i swear i was staring at the screen.
like don't know what to blog.

so i'll just blog when i feel like it.
or if anything interesting happens.
or if i'm really really really bored.

and till the day i blog,
which i suspect will not be long.
maybe it would be on monday.

i'm done with this.
just for now.

i know i sound depressing sad.i'm just school sick.
staying at home rotting is not exactly healthy you know.
but neither am i excited nor esctatic about poly life.




















hanging out after a lot of crapping my head over bio.



















again.dear 4e5.


ok.i really miss school.agh.

basic courtesy:

if a stranger says 'hi" to you...say 'bye' to them.(read:shoo)

but that moron can't seem to get it in his turtle brain system.
gon dong.



shut up yana.

banana-nana-ing

yesterday's mandarin class was superb,tho kind of boring in the first hour.pak sarip did a blooper yet again.and miss yana "the-cruel-woman" started laughing.and everyone was affected by it,and laugh along.so yeah,yesterday was fuunnn.all we did was more or less.laugh.laugh.laugh.thanks to you-know-who.haiyo.cruel but gereks lahh.whoo.which reminds me,i need to fu xi cos i was busy laughing that i didnt catch up what the teacher was teaching.agh.

just hope pak sarip didn't notice us laughing at him cos that would be sooooo rude.ishh.he's old enough to be our grandfather.so show some respect pleassseee....sheesh.

today i finally fasted.and had banana fritters and noodles.whoo.delicious lahh.been eating the banana fritters since yesterday,and can't seem to get enough of it.burping heavveennn!!!whee.

minus all that,i think i'm going bananas over lots of stuff these days.

i can't stop watching tv.debbie travis' facelift,america's next top model,apprentice,american idol....blah blah blah...and the list goes on.gosh.i'm still a potato coach.couch.whatever you call it lahh ehh.
i'm also going bananas over movies.and there's lots coming out these few days.there's casanova.big momma.final destination 3.and blah blah blah.
annnd i'm also going bananas over the moon.yah,you heard it right,the freaking moon.i'm basically obsessed with it.these few days i can't help looking out,look for it,and just stare it for awhile.gorgeous lahh.it was reddish orange one moment.then it hid behind the dark clouds.then its yellowish.whoo.and when you actually stare at it,it suddenly zoom in and looks much bigger.erm,not that you care or anything,right?but really.it was such a gorgeous sight.haix.i know i'm going bananas.but don't worry,i'm not even thinking of being an astronaut or anything.well,not yet.hee.
i'm also going bananas cos some of my "long-time-no-see" girlfriends are asking me out for a movie date.which is good.and bad.cos i think surely i'm going to splurge.so yah.banana-nana.

if you are still reading this thing,then erm,thank you,i guess.enough baloney craps.

i think i'm done.people,namely the mothers,screaming at me to stop this.

shoo.

viva la v-day!!!

i deleted the previous post because it was crap-sy.so yah.

today's v-day date with farah hor was super-fun.
treat her to a sumptuous meal of kfc.with her sponsoring her coupons.
and there were a lot of couples,with the girls,women.whatever.all walking and holding their bouquets of flowers going all gaga over it.
blah blah blah.

anything,we had a great time,i guess.the Casanova was super entertaining.much much MUCH better than that elizabethtown.whee.it was again gereks hanging out with farah hor.duh.but we didn't take much pics.wandered around tm and cs,since we bought the tix too early.went to toy 'r' us,and other shops there.just waiting for the movie to start...430.we had a one round of car race.and i lose.nehmind...kasi chance lah ehh.hee.

when we finally settled down and the movie started,with the lights off and all.the stupid nachos had to fell off.it fell on farah's seat so lucky me.haha.and she licked off some of the cheese from her seat.ugh.there goes my money.and half eaten nachos.with lots of cheese.but nvm.lucky the movie was interesting.and funny.so i was distracted all the way,and forget all about the stupid nachos.=)

after the movie,it was time to go off.wanted to take pics and all at toilets etc.the toilets were all suddenly so crowded.and one of them grossing-ly smelly-melly.eww. anyway,we ended up taking pics at interchange,unabashedly,while waiting for the bus.hahhahaha.huhu.the queue was irritatingly long,so ended up walking to school's busstop.haiyo.

but overall,yesterday was fantabulously fun and super gerek dong.
(aww.i'm so gonna miss her lahh...)


and i'm done with this.i think i'm gonna watch that desperate housewives video i record yest.sesats...

happy v-day to those-who-care!!!

shoot me if you can.

i'm really,really stressing myself out thinking about all the courses for poly.all the options.
first,cancelled off all the courses i'm sure i won't be interested in.at all.
next,cancelled those which i'm not really sure if i would be REALLY interested in.
then,i cancelled off those i think i'm not going to be happy doing the whole of my life.
that leaves me to those i think i can live with.but not like really interested.
which makes me have second thoughts of re-considering those i just cancelled off.
whicchhh means...i need to reconsider all the courses back again.
and my option booklet is already mess up with highlights and pencil cancelling.
colourful.but messy.
and i need to make a decision at least by today.

basically,i know hoots about what i'm really going to do three years from now.

and i'm thinking...

you know,when first days of school,with new class and teachers...
and these teachers ask you (in an attempt to make you introduce yourself)...
"what you want to be when you grow up??"

erm,i'll re-rethink about it,i guess.

'O' my gosh.

finally.its over.

i'm a free bird baybeh!!!whee.
so the day didn't start as smoothly as expected.

first of all.tho i was sleeping like at 1130 yest,I was like technically half asleep.couldn't help thinking about the result and all.and just when i was about to doze off,dear dayah had to send me a msg.and it kind of woke me up.and get sis' grumble.thanx for the sweet msg,dear.

so miss farah hor was late for our date.and sis already went off with her friend.when she finally finally reach,we went off to eat pathetic cheese fries.trying hard not to think about the result stuff.but of course,can't help talking about it.then we wander off to tm.lepaks.there were many people in uniforms,so it doesn't really help at all.first we were off to the archade,and had one round of car race.guess who won???ME. (farah,you can run.but i can drive okkk...whoo.huhu)this is for you dong....

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!huhu.

so after that took some neoprints out of boringness,and it turn out pretty well.whee.it was really raining,so i can't help getting myself wet.so much for distress.all the cold made me nak ter-pee.but aku try tahan jugak...

when we reached there,didn't get a nervous breakdown or anything,just erm,nervous.saw some of the chinese girls,but didn't have the mood to chat or anything.i was nervous,nervous,nervous.farah even said that she hoped the result is like next year.correction:i thought the result should not even be given to students.like everyone gets to go wherever they want,mind their own business,and don't have to deal with all this waiting for a piece of paper.

then again.the teachers wouldn't even have a job.so yah..

the waiting was really really loonnnggg...as expected mr "nosehair" neo had to deliver a long-winded speech.finally THE judgement time.whoo drama-mama.nerve-racking lahh.i kept calling sis and then farah.then texting them,and bro.and kept calling home.and the makciks got all excited,tho,i haven't get the result or anything.hee.my fingers tend to meng-gatal wanting to press press and texting people if i'm nervous.half-bored.bored.or totally bored.

the teachers all came in.and mr hafiz suddenly halt beside me.and said "how you think you did?", i just put my shoulders up.(you know,when you want to tell someone you have no idea.) then he goes "i think i will get slapped." whoa.that just made me more nervous.

i didn't realise how big no 11 is until today.we were given the slips according to register no,and i'm the 11th.and it was freaking long.he had to say some stuff.show some papers and all.so it was a looonnnggg wait.

there was a lot of talking and kurang asam-ness from him when he told me i did exaggeratedly VERY badly.liar. so i'm kind of satisfied with my result,tho,i thought i could do better for some of the subjects.sheesh.
i won't publish my result in my blog,obviously.you people won't really want to know annyywaaay...

enough about the result stuff.

after that i thought of treating farah as promised.but mom showed up at school.unannounced.
sorry to dong hor,for dumping you for my mom.hee.
so i hangout with mom and wait for yana.sounds weird,but yah.
lots of msg-ings from well-wishers and all.

and we were off to home.whee.

and i'm dead beat right now.i'm done.

ps; for those-who-wants-to-know: i didn't slap mr hellboy hafiz.not cos i'm scared.
i'm sparing him.for now.shoo.


















that nice neoprint we took before the result.whoo.nice hor?









and i'll end this thing with quote of the day...
But you fail my science,cuckoo!!
-mr hafiz

kismet or not?

I really don't know where to start.

I'm really,really bracing myself for tmr.can't help being nervous.and scared.I'm already imagining some situations that could happen tmr,which according to farah, the Judgement Day.whoo.drama?no,it really is THAT scary.

so there's high possibility that I might cry.(which I promise someone I won't will try not to)
only He knows why I would cry.maybe of despair and shock.maybe not.I'm still praying really hard.And hopefully tmr,when I've reach the hall,I won't have a nervous breakdown or anything.

which is why I'm hoping that the "calm me.calm you." session I'm having with farah before the result tmr will somehow ease off the pressure and all.just hangout and lunch,to get the pressure off.

you know,there's days which everyone wish they could undo.
days that could change your whole life...

well,I've been thinking about it.and how I wish I could have listen to mr hafiz,when he gave me all those hints.lectures.reality check.and a lot of advises.
It affected me,but just for awhile.

of course,not until the m.p.s.

too late for realisation or regrets,isn't it?
what more can I do?I know I've done my very best.

the anticipation of the result is crucifying.
it keeps nagging me.
how will i do?
how will it be?
how will i react?

only He knows how agonising this wait is.
and hopefully,i do okay.

funny how your future is determined by a piece of paper.
(quoted from iyloo)

weird but true.

24 hours and a sleepless long night.

boo.

I know.I said I won't be blogging for a week.
can't help myself.
life is pretty mundane right now.
result in three days time.
more than 48 hours,but less then a month.
shit.
three months is too fast.

and i'm panicking.




help.



just signed in just now and guess who sent me an instant msg.
MR "hellboy" HAFIZ.
ya,i freaked out.













Dreamcatcher: you better pray hard for friday.
elyanee: (still shock) yes sir.
Dreamcatcher: Anyway,good luck.
elyanee: thanx.
elyanee: hope its going to be alright.Insyaallah...
Dreamcatcher: Praise be to God.
elyanee: (clueless and still have shock) amin.
Dreamcatcher: wasalam...
elyanee: (dared by sis) ckg.
elyanee: rmbr you said if i prove you wrong...
elyanee: and i actually make it...
Dreamcatcher: good...prove me wrong...
elyanee: i can slap your face...
elyanee: rmbr?
Dreamcatcher: yup...it still stands...
elyanee: ok deal.
Dreamcatcher: we'll see...Allah is Great.

So that was pretty much our conversation.
hell,I can't believe I actually asked him that.(somebody kill me please!!)


now i'm convinced i'm going bonkers.

me and my mouth.agh.

but really...if it actually happens...and i can do you-know-what to you-know-who...
erm,anyone else in??hee.

ok.
shut up iyl.
i'm panicking.and praying hard.
you should to.
if not for you,then at least pray for me can.

the result's out friday..230pm.
people,spread the news,share the grieve.

shoo.

dear readers...

I will not be blogging till next week due to pressure of the 'o' level result.and thus,i need to prepare myself physically,mentally,and emotionally.so pray for me.pray hard.


and don't miss me too much ks.

bb.

aww me.

dear miss shuhui stood me up last minute because of her work.and i'm basically bored and don't know what to do right now. : ( we were suppose to go to ngee ann poly openhouse.and i didn't have anyone else to go with me.sis didn't want to go.and farah went yest with some mr Amin Hor.and she couldn't accompany me tmr either.and neither does shuhui.agh.

but then again.i'm not exactly desperate to go to ngee ann poly.or any poly for that matter.just desperate for the O' level result.urgh.heard from hopefully-not-reliable source that its going to be out this monday.isshhh.so fast seyy...i'm not really excited to see mr hellboy again,that's for sure.erk.if i make it its yay yay.and mr hafiz said if i actually make it and prove him wrong,i can slap his face!!that would be like sooo gerekkk!!whee. but of course if i don't make it*touchwood and everything else*...erm,i won't there to even think about it ah.i'm officially panic right now.help.(i haven't had enougghhh fuunnn this three months!!!)

okay enough sad sad.

today nothing much been happening.did some marketing.alone.and i swear i look so lost.and some erm,"cooking".yah,i'm that bored.like really nothing better to do stuck at home.yet again.yay??

anything..i'm still waiting for a movie date with shu.another one with farah hor,and also sis and dearest-est liana anak atan. yay.

and i think i have enough of this.shoo people.
i'll sum up today's entry with thisss...

guess who this is?hint:it's not me.never.

wo study hua yu hui hua

yest's mandarin class was superbly fantabulous.was really fun with all the kecoh-ness and everyone laughing at everyone else.except of course,if YOU're the one being laughed at.the teacher is very erm,nice i guess.and she basically teach us to speak.wow?hahahaha.it felt like being back to nursery school like that.hee.can't wait for the next lesson!!!whee.and hopefully i'm not late like yest.ishh...

blabberbouts.

i've been being hyper-sensitive lately.don't know why.since i've just finished being attack by japan.agh.so basically,since don't know when,i really really get hurt and kind of have a mental disorder if anyone says i'm stupid.which i know they don't really mean it.but agh.you know, it just gets to you.they'll go "bodoh ah!" or "jangan jadi bodoh!" or "biarkan dia tak pandai!".urgh.it's just the way they talk you know.and like i said they really don't mean it.it's just the way it is.all i did was just shut up and feign ignorance.not react violently or anything,despite my unusual state of mind this few days.

but no worry,i think it's just that 'o' level result pressure nearing.agh.god help me.like any other normal human being waiting for that nerve-racking moment...i'm actually quite nervous and all.and that suck.like the same feeling last time when i was late for school,and had to face mr hafiz's interrogation.you know,when he make you stand at attention and speak out loud.isshh....scary beb!!

enough about all the pressure2 thing.it really doesn't help talking about it.

yest was just lots of slacking at home.and us being potato couchs.coaches.or whatever.the tv was literally burning.and we had to switch to the bedroom tv after watching since morning till noon.isshh...

on monday we went to that awal muharram thing at expo.and yah.it was fuunn..like thousands of people.and we have solat jemaah.lucky for me japan surrendered on time.yay.=) and it ended later than expected.but yeah.thank God i was there.no regrets.for the prayers.the intense chant of prayers.tho,i'm no fan of nasyid musics and all,have to say..hijjaz was really great.i was enjoying myself till the ennddd...whee.

these last few days at home have been hectic,with the makciks asking us to help with the chores and all.which means i couldn't read my 6th book SNOBS in peace.agh.and i barely have time to use the com either.urrhh.

and i'm done for now.

shoo.